I stood at a crossroads recently.
Metaphorically, or course. I didn't actually walk to a four-way intersection.
The roads were all a tangled mess. Work and family. Creation and Contribution. Fun and Input.
And I evaluated. I evaluated my time. I evaluated my energy. I evaluated my resources.
I evaluated my opportunities.
With the added stress at work, and the added stress at home, and the added stress of actually caring about anything these days, I came the closest I've ever come to giving up this ghost.
Wow, that sounds worse than I meant. Naturally, I am still 100% invested in love and life and my job.
It's the little extra things that were teetering.
But no longer.
Maybe not in the same capacity as before. Things might still go a while between updates. But...
But I like having this blog to voice my opinions.
But I have a responsibility to keep writing for Jedi News, that I keep a positive voice in the Star Wars fandom no matter how much I want to just not even bother sometimes - because if I give up, then the haters win.
But I want to keep that built-in audience, however small, to start doing some new things - perhaps podcasting, perhaps YouTube, perhaps I'll even start working on my abandoned novel again.
Of course, all of this will take time, energy, and resources that I may not have right away. But the difference is that I think I'm going to start really banging out the logistics and actually go for something.
And I hope you'll all continue to take that journey with me.